Sunday, April 5, 2015

Happy Easter

     Usually Micah is more inclined to write the more thoughtful posts and I just like to post pictures and such, but today while watching General Conference, I was really touched by Elder Jeffrey R. Holland's simple but beautiful talk on our Savior and how Easter is the most Sacred Day of the year.  Although most of my thoughts I like to keep close to my heart, I felt I would be ungrateful for our Savior's magnificent gift if I did not share something today.

     This past January/February while we were stuck in Boston because of appointments and weather, I read this chapter over and over (because let's be honest, it's short) but mostly because I loved this simple and true verse:  "But there is a resurrection, therefore the grave hath no victory, and the sting of death is swallowed up in Christ."  (Mosiah 16:8)  I love the phrase the sting of death is swallowed up in Christ because it put into words my feelings towards Emmett's life since he was diagnosed.  I never have really felt anger towards his diagnosis, nor that it was a punishment from God.  I just felt that it was life happening to us like it does to everyone and that if we lost him, I couldn't imagine how much I would miss him, but that death really isn't an end and because of Easter Sunday, I have no doubt it would just be separation for a time. I don't pretend to know what it is like to actually lose a child-I know that thinking about it is absolutely an entirely different thing than actually experiencing it.  But between that small verse and Elder Holland's talk today, I realized how grateful I am for today, for our Savior's triumph over death because my knowledge of that is what has kept the last few years from being such a heavy weight on my chest or a depressing chapter of life.  I've always felt that as his mother, I of all people should have had anxiety and depression through this all and I haven't...and I have felt guilty because of that.  Elder Holland's talk today painted such a beautiful and simple picture of what Jesus Christ has done for us and put into words my feelings of hope and made me feel grateful for this blessing of hope instead of guilt.  Happy Easter to everyone today!

Here are my Easter Joys!